I felt a shift in myself both times after I had my first two babies. It was like I was going through some sort of transition and transformation – both of which I was desperately trying to resist.
I liked myself, I liked my life, I didn’t want to change. I just wanted to be the old me, but with a baby (or two).
I carried on mothering, but I was not content. I was a little lost, and a little confused about what had happened to me. But I carried on – because I am a mother and that’s what we do.
You can’t outrun the motherhood transition.
My third baby, however, pulled the rug out from under me. Well, not literally of course, because obviously she was a baby! But when she came along, the changes in me where profound. Again, I tried to resist them, but this time I couldn’t stick my head in the sand.
The developmental transition was too great!
So, I ended up in a long battle with probably postnatal anxiety / postpartum anxiety (I say “probably” because I was never officially diagnosed). Until I realised, try as you might, you can’t outrun the transition and transformation of motherhood.
And that transition has a name: Matrescence
Every woman goes through the transition of matrescence when she becomes a mother.
Including Laura, who sent me this question for Q&A Wednesday:
I had my baby 6 months ago. She’s gorgeous and I love her. Motherhood is tough but she makes it worthwhile. I knew that things change when you have a baby, but I didn’t realise how much I would change. I’m not depressed, I just find myself missing my old life, not so much one without my baby, but I miss the old me. I feel embarrassed to talk about it because I really do love my daughter very much, and I don’t want people to think I am ungrateful. I just want the internal feeling of pre-baby me back.
In this episode of The Tough Mothers Podcast and Tough Mothers TV you will learn:
- What is matrescence? Podcast [2.42], TV [2.12]
Matrescence is a word that not many people have heard of, but every parent must know. Because every mother goes through matrescence.
Matrescence is the transition a woman goes through when she becomes a mother – physically, psychologically, emotionally, socially, spiritually…
- What happens during matrescence – why do we not know about matrescence? Podcast [3.30], TV [3.00]
We don’t know about matrescence until it happens to us, because we don’t talk about it.
But we must. We must talk about it, especially to all pregnant women.
We are changed after having a baby – women are literally transformed after childbirth.
Is it normal to wonder what is going on with you after you’ve had a baby? Podcast [3.42], TV [3.12]
Laura is not alone in feeling lost in motherhood. It is common to feel you have lost your identity.
We ask ourselves who am I?
Where did I go?
Is this it?
- Why we must focus on the mother after childbirth Podcast [5.18], TV [4.48]
The transition of matrescence is so phenomenal. Yet, after childbirth the focus shifts from the woman to the baby. Right when the mother needs the most support…
When a baby is born, so is a mother!
Find yourself in matrescence – How to use matrescence as a catalyst to create an amazing motherhood life for yourself
We must be prepared for this personal transformation. We must create a plan, specific to us, for matrescence. Just like we do a birth plan. Because like birth, the postnatal period is a time of tremendous change.
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Links mentioned in the episode
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Dana Raphael – The Tender Gift : Breastfeeding
Tough Mothers courses
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